I had a different blog post up here. I took it down because how I portrayed myself is not who I want to be. I wrote a long essay about the other woman, their relationship, and it was a rather scathing commentary. I don’t want to be that vengeful, unforgiving person.
That being said, I am still human. I still have feelings, I still get angry, I still get hurt, and I sometimes act in those feelings. I think that God is trying to teach me to control my feelings and my words. Do I like the other woman? Absolutely NOT!! How can you have positive feelings for someone who tried everything they could to rip your marriage apart? For someone who slept with your husband? Heck, for someone who “fell in love” with your husband? I don’t know that you ever really come to a place where you can feel positive about that person. I feel like the best you can hope for is a sense of indifference. Indifferent about their existance. I don’t wish death upon her. And based on her life choices, I believe she is pretty lonely. I truly do wish that she finds someone that is available and all hers. Someone who doesn’t have to hide her and that she doesn’t have to share.
Most of all, I pray that God uses my feelings about her to bring about growth in me. I want people to see God’s love in me. I want to be a good example to others in this situation, how not to let it eat them alive. How not to stew in your anger and hurt, and how to lay these things at God’s feet. I don’t have it mastered yet. Not even close. But I am trying.